Finally it's April, a month I have been waiting for since November. The month that I will be done chemo, the month I will begin my recovery, the month I will begin my life as a "survivor" and the month that I will get on a plane and get the heck out of here to spend time with my family. HURRAY!!! I have never been so happy to turn the calendar.
As I approach the end of my treatment so many people ask me "Are you glad to be finished?". I am glad to be done treatment but I think "Am I really ever finished?". The treatment part of this journey will be over but my journey will continue forever. There will be follow up appointments that will cause me anxiety as well as diet and exercise routines that I'll need to learn and follow. I'll get a head ache or back ache and worry that the cancer has come back. I know all these things will get easier with time but I don't think cancer patients are ever "finished". I wish that some day there will be a cure so cancer patients can do what they need to do and live without fear but I'm not sure if that will ever happen.
As the week approaches, I am feeling good. I took Jack to his first movie yesterday. The excitement in his eyes was amazing and he was so cute while watching the Lorax. I was so excited to take him and can only imagine that's how I felt when my parents took me to my first movie. I have a million things to get done before my last chemo as Easter weekend is approaching. I'll have to do a little Easter shopping and filling of eggs for the hunt while I'm still feeling good. I have my blood work on Wednesday and chemo on Thursday.
My pink tutu is all ready for me to wear for my last chemo. I'm going to get all decked out and make it a party. Finishing chemo is probably one of my most greatest accomplishments. All those times I wanted to give up but didn't. I am feeling pretty proud of myself.
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