This chemo has really thrown me on my a-double s that's forsure!! I now have no taste buds or at least everything I do drink or eat tastes like metal or warm liquid. I have to have all my drinks ICE cold or they taste awful and most food just tastes like nothing. It's very hard to eat and drink when everything I put in my mouth if horrible. I'm still nauseous at times although have not thrown up since Saturday. I couldn't sleep last night because my mind just races (thanks to the steriods) and I wake up in a hot sweat. My back is achy from the injection for my white blood cells but so far I think the "bone pain" associated with that has been minimal - one saving grace. I walk up a flight of stairs and I have to lie down. I'm frustrated that Jack just so desperately wants me to feel better to "play trains" and I just don't have the energy. I feel like a prisioner in my own skin.....I so badly want to do things but physically can't. I'm not usually one to lie around but that's all I seem to be able to do. I'm exhausted all day but can't sleep at night. UGH! I am feeling rather defeated and started to feel like a "cancer patient". Before this I felt totally fine and like this was all just a bump in the road. Now it feels much harder.
I am calling the oncologist today to see if I can get my meds switched for the next round of chemo and to talk to her about getting something to help me sleep. Fingers crossed that the next round is not this bad. It feels like it's going to be a very long 4 months.......
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